My girl.
(climbing onto her ‘stage’ to perform for Daddy and I)
A couple of days ago she woke up crying. It was earlier than usual so Jared put her into bed with me and she snuggled right in. I could hear a soft little sob.
“What’s wrong honey?”
“I had a bad dream. I dreamt that I was never ever gonna see you again”
My gut wrenched. Where did this come from?
“Honey that’s not gonna happen. I’m not going anywhere.” I kissed her head and we both fell back asleep.
Fast forward 2 days and she was watching a movie in my bed. It was one that she had borrowed from a friend at preschool ‘Ponyo’ and had taken to it immediately. At one point however, she called me into the room and asked if I would watch the next part with her because it was “too scary.” I told her I would just fast forward through that part but she said no, she just wanted me to stay. I watched and waited. I expected a monster, or a witch, or some other evil/bad guy (Disney can really cross the line sometimes no?) to make its way into the screen. But instead, as the scene unfolded there were none of the obvious ‘scare tactics’, but rather just a boy who was looking for his mother.
“Here it is Mommy, here’s the scary part.”
The little boy found his Mom’s car and ran up to it calling out to her. He opened the door and kept calling her name. But she wasn’t there. There was no sign of his Mom. And he starting weeping.
That was the scene. And suddenly it all made sense. Her nightmare…she was afraid losing her momma.
We worry about so many things when it comes to our kids. Are we giving them everything they need? Enough activities? Enough playtime? Enough discipline? Enough education?
But you know what? All they need is you. I promise.
Enjoy it while it lasts.
Oh…the fears of a child! And funny to find they are still fears as an adult. 🙂 squeeze them now and every chance you get. Thanks for the reminder.
Hey Jen,
I love your blog, its a great read. My brother recently lost his wife (Jess might have told you).She left behind three young children (6, 4 and 9 months) they are in the unfortunate reality of losing a mother. I have searched for a good kids book about the lose of a mother, something that can also explain who God is and how wonderful Heaven is. But I have had no luck, if you know of any please let me know (thinking that my only option is to write my own book). Again I love your blog and hopefully we will get to see each other again soon!!
Tana, I am so very sorry for your loss. How incredibly tragic. I can’t even imagine…
I can’t think of a book off the top of my head but let me talk to a couple of people who might know. Regardless, your whole family (especially those babies and your brother) will be in my prayers.
Love the pictures Jen especially the top one. I enjoy looking at all your new photos you’ve recently posted too. Keep up the good work! Just read Tana Ryans comment above about those three children who lost their mum. My heart goes out to them, poor little darlings.
Thanks Jo! Be sure to give me your site when you have one so I can return the love 🙂