I’m pretty sure we captured her first heartbreak on video.
We did a gender reveal with the kids and Grace bit into her cupcake first.
“Aww” she said with a disappointed swing in her voice.
And we knew it was a boy.
We all laughed and chattered in bewilderment at yet another boy roommate. She had been giggling out of nervousness but when I looked over again she could no longer keep the corners of her mouth up. It fell, hard…and the tears welled up in her eyes.
She had wanted a baby sister so badly.
I turned off the camera and Jared pulled her into his arms. She began to sob and just couldn’t stop. He took her in the other room and a few minutes later I went in to check on them.
“You know what sweetheart” I whispered to her, “we all would have loved for this baby to be a girl. But you know what it means that it’s a boy? It means that you are our one and only. You are our special girl.”
And I’m telling you that I meant it with every fiber of my being.
Nature girl. With bows in her hair and painted nails she’ll make habitats for stuffed animals out of grass and mud and water.
Sometimes the energy is overwhelming and out of control…like bedtime. And often it’s plain hard and I feel like she’s lost in her head somewhere and my voice is drown out. But sometimes the energy is beautiful and infectious.
Head in the clouds.
xoxo my sweet, sweet girl.